Hmm… so the office people are reading all the xangas in the “Madison Christian blogring”? Well, if that’s so and they happen to come across this I’d just like to say “hi” to them and that I hope they’re having an okay day… although if some of the other students xangas are as disturbing as I’ve heard then they might not be having such a good day… sorry about that, office people
I’d also like to say that I don’t disagree at all with their doing that… because if you let kids go around saying whatever they want to online and never give them any reason to think that there might be any consequences, then they end up being like this girl who… wasn’t very nice to me at the first high school I was at and was the final reason I left there. I dunno… I know schools can’t dictate every aspect of your life, and that people’s parents can’t or won’t do anything about it for various reasons… but at least there’s the comfort of knowing that God will deal out justice in His own time. I don’t always like for it to be so, because God’s justice could be that when a body dies their soul is cast into hell because they didn’t repent and believe in Christ… although that is nobody’s fault but their own… *sigh*
I hope it wouldn’t come to that though… and even though God’s justice will be served, I wish there were more immediate consequences for kids (and adults) abusing their rights to be on the internet with how they talk about people, but that’ll probably never happen on a satisfactory level because then people complain about their freedoms of speech being infringed upon and whatever other crap they can think of…
A few weekends ago I watched the movie Mean Girls with my sister, Stacy, and her friend Kaitie… it’s a disgusting movie, but it’s SOOO accurate about the way people treat each other sometimes. I hated watching it… all I could think of was that it reminded me so very much of those girls at my first high school… and then the other half of me kept making excuses about how “it was just a movie and maybe it wasn’t really that bad in real life”, or that I “didn’t really know those people at my old school that well”, or that “well, I went to a Catholic school and this movie is set in a public school, so my old school can’t really have been so bad”. Of course, after thinking that last one I had to mentally slap myself because that Catholic school basically was a public school…
They taught us that evolution was true, we watched movies with morally questionable scenes in them for classes, some of my teachers said that the bible was mostly just a collection of myths to explain things (i.e. creation story, tower of Babel story), and I highly doubt that the students in my Spanish class (for an example) were Christians if the topic of conversation on Monday was the party they’d gone to over the weekend that had been busted for drugs and underage drinking, and how some kid tried to jump out a 2nd story window because he was high and didn’t want the cops wouldn’t catch him… he ended up breaking both arms, and the girls who I sat around that were talking about it were devising plans to get out of the drug/alcohol workshops they were being required to go to with their parents… it wasn’t really such a great place.
I could swear that I don’t know of anyone there who I ever talked to about a relationship with Christ aside from my theology teacher, and that was because we were Christians as well as geeks… geeky people and people who really were Christians (whether they were Catholic or in a different denomination) got made fun of a lot there… but that’s what I was and am, and I guess in situations like that you just have to stick with Jesus and the people who are like you or you won’t be able to stand everyone else.
I miss some people from there and sometimes I wonder what it’d be like to go back, but overall I’m glad we got out of there when we did and ended up at Maranatha, because that was the best place I’ve ever been so far and being with the people there really taught me a lot. And now I’m at Madison, which is like a mixture of both of those places. Some of the very good, and some of the very bad… it’s very strange to look at how things are where I am now after having been in Bishop Ready and then where I was the last two years… I suppose that if I hadn’t had both sides of it then I might not know what to do with some of the people I’ve run into this year. If I didn’t know what to do with the really mean and ruthless people, then I’d just feel rejected and sorry for myself like I did at Ready a lot, and if I hadn’t gone to Maranatha and experienced being in a mostly Christian group where I finally had friends who were really into Christ and into being my brothers and sisters and looking after each other, then I would probably be so much less mature in my walk with the Lord and that probably wouldn’t be so helpful to me right now.
Anyways… that’s just some ramblings about how people treat each other and how kids act at school and in general… I guess the only good thing that came out of it that I know of is that the girl who was mean to me in particular learned a lesson about not putting certain things on the internet. I doubt that she knows it, but now and then I check up on her buddy profile and her xanga to see how things are going for her so I can pray for her some… she doesn’t write as much as she used to, but at least that way there’s less in there to hurt somebody that she doesn’t like, should they find her page.
Well, later days & God bless.
Abbie: “From your favourite parasite.”