Cruel :: Web Advisor…
Jive :: Eh… uh… I got nothin.
Weak :: Break.
Understand :: I surely don’t.
Burn :: Candles!
Stairs :: Falling down them and breaking your neck. Doesn’t sound fun.
Tone :: of voice.
Quickly :: Dodge.
Moment :: one of those…
Beating :: my brains out.
Speaking of “one of those moments”… I don’t know why, but every now and then while I’m being driven back and forth between school, church, or people’s houses I keep thinking I see something covered in snow. Like a car or a fence or something with snow on it, and I always do a double take because I know it shouldn’t be there and I still saw it… and every time I look again it’s not there anymore. I know that should make sense because it wasn’t there to begin with… but I can’t stand it because I can’t come up with a reason. One time I felt pretty convinced that it was my imagination because, after all, the fence I thought had snow on it was a white fence. Unfortunately, that idea of me mistaking white things for snow didn’t hold up, because the car that I thought was snow-covered was red. I don’t know why my eyes are playing tricks like that on me, but I don’t find it very funny.
I’m also getting annoyed at this feeling of falling that I keep having. I know other people have this same feeling that they’re falling when they aren’t… and it used to be that would happen to me sometimes when I was trying to fall asleep. My idea about it is that it might be something to do with me starting to fall asleep and then sort of jerking awake, but that idea doesn’t hold up any better than the idea I had about the snow. Now I sometimes get that feeling when we’re driving somewhere, only instead of falling it’s kind of more like a jolt. Like being hit, I guess… it’s like going up or down steps and thinking there’s one more step. That feeling when you try to take another step and it’s not there is pretty similar… just like feeling like you’re falling and then realizing that you’re already lying down… or feeling a jolt like you should have been hit even though you know perfectly well that nothing happened.
I don’t know… I don’t like having the sensation that something happened when it didn’t, and I don’t like seeing things that aren’t really there. It’s not funny but I don’t know that there’s anything to be done about it. Oh well.
We got out early Monday because the room was an icebox. Then we learned about conventions Wednesday. Friday I stayed home to write a paper for religion, so I need to e-mail someone and try to get the notes, and I need to e-mail our professor and ask when the second paper was moved to.
Class was cancelled Friday because our prof got sent to a conference. In other news… an article on how we process sarcasm… http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/4566319.stm.
Class was cancelled Monday because… I don’t know why. We read something about dreams—nightmares, specifically. It was hard for me to understand for two reasons. 1) I cannot control my dreams. I just can’t. It never occurred to me to take part in the action on purpose. My dreams have always kind of just… happened, and I was there watching or someone else was there watching for me and I kinda remembered it later. That and 2) I don’t have nightmares. I don’t really think I ever have. Sometimes I’ve had dreams that were a bit disturbing… but they weren’t nightmares. They don’t scare me.
The paper for that was not so much fun. I don’t think most of us were really sure of what the paper was supposed to be about until class on Wednesday, and then instead of starting the paper Wednesday night, I did other homework. Then Thursday I didn’t do any homework for half of the evening because I was agonizing over what I would choose for my last class… I started my paper around 10 something and worked on it to almost 12:45, then I realized I couldn’t concentrate enough to finish it. So I decided I’d have to miss media class and I was glad psychology was cancelled… so I stayed home and finished my paper. Then I went to school around 1 something so I could go to the library and then go to my religion class. From the things people who sit around me were saying, I wasn’t the only one who stayed up late and then missed classes to finish that paper… I also thought it was kind of funny how everyone seems to have gotten really similar ideas from it. Our professor always goes around the room and asks us something about what we wrote or learned or whatever… and I can only recall 5 really different things that were mentioned. Must be boring for the professors to read those.
Also went to a presentation on Wednesday about “When Religion Becomes Evil”. It was better than other presentations I’ve been to… dunno if I necessarily agreed with all that the guy said, but it was okay.
Finished watching the movie. Read a Johnson play and didn’t like it so much. Got the short paper assigned for noon this coming Friday. Blah.
Sometimes theories make me laugh. Not because they’re funny, but because the thought of someone thinking so hard about a subject and trying to explain it like they do… it’s just hilarious. I would like to meet someone who writes theory just to see if they’re normal. I don’t think that they are. Other than that… I dunno.
I don’t know what happened Monday. I introduced that last song I had to introduce, then when I pressed the button to play it, that song got skipped and it played the next one instead! Gargh… Wednesday was good though, but I had 7 minutes to fill in because someone messed up the timing. Hopefully it was okay when I left though, because I only had –3 seconds on the timer when I put it on automation and left.
Hope Unleash the Music is going well. If you’re interested in finding out more about that and RadioU, visit www.unleashthemusic.org.
I am NOT happy about registering for spring. Wednesday I visited my advisor and picked out 4 classes I could take, and then he said I could pick out another class and it could be pretty much whatever I wanted to take. I decided on an audio recording class that the conservatory offers, but I couldn’t register until Friday. Then, Friday I went to register and THREE of the classes I wanted to take are CLOSED! What am I to do now? I’m really very upset about all of this, so if you kids could pray for me, that would be great.
I called my advisor and left a message at his office and his house, and I sent him an e-mail… so hopefully I’ll hear back soon and figure out what on earth I am supposed to do… but in the meantime, I am not so much happy about how it’s looking.
On a better note… my Chris and I went and saw The Prestige. It was really a pretty good movie, although I was disappointed because by the end you really can’t tell whose side you’re supposed to be on. If you like movies that make you guess a lot, you should go see it. My Chris also got me a nice Christmas-smelling candle, so yay! I like to burn things… ^_^
8 papers left.
Thanks so much for your prayers and for reading and being my friends.
JD: ‘Napoleon, I just called to tell you that I think you’re a shallow friend’. Kelly, did you think of me at that part?
Me: Well… heh, okay, yeah, I did.
(fun times back at Madison…)