Yeah, so I haven’t written anything in a while now about writing, but in the last few hours one thing has become clear to me:
I must not write fan fiction.
I have done some of this, mostly for my personal amusement (not that this is a new reason for me writing anything), but in the past year it has become abundantly clear to me that this is not something I should be doing. There are a few reasons for this, and I shall list them.
- I feel a little guilty about using other people’s creations for my own purposes. I’ve tried very hard to get away from leaning too much on other things that I read or watch, just because I don’t know that the people who made up these characters and settings would appreciate me “stealing” them and making them into something else. I especially feel that the Middle-Earth fan fiction that I wrote would NOT meet with Tolkien’s approval.
- I realize that the direction that most of my fan fiction pieces take is completely ridiculous. This is unfortunate because on one hand, it means I tend to work hard on a piece and give up when I realize my ideas don’t (or might not) mesh with the original story. I hate working hard and giving up.
- On the other hand, since December there have been two things that I wrote stories for that actually included some things that I had thought of when I was writing my fan fiction pieces!
Item three is probably the worst of all of them. I say that because, since item one is there, it means I’ve put away the things I wrote, and I have no idea where I might find them and reassure myself that I actually wrote them before I had much of an inkling that I was on the right track…
The first of these things I handwrote, so I have little chance of recovering it. I scrapped a lot of things a few years ago, and a lot of it was handwritten rubbish that I decided I needed to throw out… fanfic #1 probably got scrapped with it. That or thrown out when we moved and my dad cleaned out whatever junk was left under my bed.
Fanfic #2 however, may still be around… I suspect that it isn’t though. I typed that piece, and I have been unable to find it on my computer, so my only hope is that it made it to my laptop or onto a floppy disc. In all honesty, I doubt it… I think I decided to delete it because it was “stupid” (what idiot deletes their work like that!?), but I’ll go have a look around anyway.
How weird it is to see “my” ideas used or my suspicions confirmed…
I admit I’m a bit pleased with myself to know that the things I come up with aren’t totally ridiculous, but at the same time I feel a little cheated. How could someone else have the same ideas as I do and not tell me!?
“To all the people who thought I would never make it – thanks for the inspiration.”