I did come back from Tennessee. I just haven’t touched the computer until now.
I’ve been keeping busy: recovering from the illness I went to TN with, doing Christmas stuff, visiting with Chris’s friends – they were fairly entertaining – and with relatives.
So what can I say? This is the last entry of 2007. How might I sum things up? I could take some questions from a survey. For example:
[ ] sucked for me
[ ] Was awesome
[X] was ok. It was awesome sometimes, then sucked sometimes.
What year isn’t going to be awesome sometimes and awful other times? That doesn’t tell you about my year. There are more specific questions.
In 2007, I:
[ ] Dumped someone
[ ] was dumped.
[ ]Dyed my hair
[ ] Snuck out of my house
[X] Stayed up all night
[X] Cried because I missed someone
[ ] missed curfew
[ ] Kissed someone who I regret kissing
[X] kissed someone I liked
[ ] danced crazily with my friends all night
[ ] Gained some confidence
[ ] Lost a friend(s)
[ ] Gained new friends
[ ] Changed my look
That doesn’t tell you much either. Out of fourteen items, I did three. They’re vague things, too. I didn’t tell you why I stayed up all night, or who I was missing. I didn’t tell you much at all. I could tell you some about what I hope about the next year, though.
In 2008, I want to…
[X] Be more outgoing
[X] get better grades
[ ] Care less about how I look
[ ] Care more about how I look
[ ] get crazier
[ ]Keep my resolution
[X]Be more of myself around people
Something I want to happen in 2008: Get my driver’s license…
Something I don’t want to happen in 2008? Mmm… good question. There are many things.
Honestly, will you miss 2007?: Certainly I won’t miss the year as a whole.
That does tell you some specific things, but it doesn’t tell you things like what I mean by “better grades”. I’d like to get all A’s for once. That would be exciting. It’s not the best thing ever, but I would be pleased.
I found more questions from another survey. Maybe those will get me a better picture of the past year.
1.) Where did you ring in 2007?
2.) What was your status by Valentine’s Day?
The same as it was before Valentine’s Day.
3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
4.) How did you earn your keep?
By… being a good student? My parents are usually pretty good about feeding me.
5.) Did you end up in the hospital?
No, but I did get sick a few times.
6.) Have you ever encountered the police?
Why yes. I interviewed them for class assignments.
7.) Where did you go on vacation?
8.) What did you purchase that was over $300?
I never spent that much of my own money at once.
9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
Chris’s cousin. I didn’t really know her though.
10.) Did you know anybody who passed away?
11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
JD and Joe.
12.) Did you move anywhere?
13.) What sporting events did you go to?
14.) What concerts did you go to?
Hawk Nelson/Sanctus Real, Fireflight/Disciple, Showbread/Project 86.
15.) Are you registered to vote?
16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
No, I didn’t. I felt bad, but honestly, I never found out what the issues were, so I didn’t feel like I could vote well.
17.) Where do you live now?
18.) What did you do on your birthday?
We went to see 1408.
19.) What’s the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2007?
Go to NYC. That was fun.
20.) What is one thing you regretted this year?
Mmm, yeah… that… *grimace*
21.) What’s something you learned about yourself?
That I have a really jealous side.
22.) Any new additions to your family?
23.) What was your best month?
Mmm… I dunno.
24.) What from pop culture will you remember 2007 by?
Pop culture? Erm… Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows. Or… the Order of the Phoenix movie that came out.
25.) How would you rate this year?
It was a blah year.
I don’t know. I don’t feel satisfied about this as a summary of my year. Maybe my answers were just too short? I don’t think they really conveyed enough.
Like, my answer to #2 doesn’t indicate how pleased I am that Chris and I have been together for nearly 2.5 years. Of course we have our moments where we really snap at each other like angry animals, but really I’m quite happy to have had a Valentine then and now.
My answer to #5 doesn’t tell you how terribly painful that kidney infection was and how terrified I was when the doctor I saw suggested giving my antibiotics through an IV. I never want to be that sick again. Never. But, then I was also terrified that I would get that blood infection that she mentioned I could end up with… and die. Plus, I was incredibly unhappy when my dad mentioned I might have to stay home instead of visiting Kerri and Melody.
I’m relieved that I got to go on my trip, and that I’m better, but I don’t think I really mentioned this in my answer.
Number 19 doesn’t convey how excited I was to be there at CMJ with our management team, especially when we won the award. And my answer doesn’t indicate how fascinating Times Square is at night. I’ve never been to such an overwhelming place, and it was pretty cool. I think I’ll remember it for a long time.
In question 20, my answer is really vague… but I think it would take an obscene amount of text to convey how unhappy I was as that situation built up over the year… or how unhappy I was when I let it get to me, and especially when someone was a little rough in telling me I was being stupid about it.
My answer doesn’t really tell you how ashamed I was when I found out that person was right, either. Overall, I suppose it was for the best, because without a firm “Reeser, this is what you need to do”, I might not have done it and it might not have been sorted out as well as it was. It still hurt though, and it didn’t just “go away”. I didn’t mention that in my answer, either.
My answer to 21 is deceptively simple. Thanks to a situation, I’ve discovered that I have a capacity for jealousy, anger and bitterness that I had not known I had. I’m ashamed of it. That isn’t stopping me from writing about it though. While I was away, I discussed with someone what some of my ideas were for a story I am writing, and those ideas are simmering, waiting for me to get back to them. My hope is that I can write away a good chunk of the bad feelings. Maybe I’ll be able to, and maybe not.
And #24… well, if you’ve read it, you’ll understand. I was excited to read it, and a little apprehensive. It was “The End”, after all. There were parts of it that I loved, they were exciting or moving, and I read those sections over and over again… and then there were parts that I detested. I honestly think I may just skip the epilogue if I reread that book, but my answer doesn’t tell you that.
I think looking back on a whole year is hard. There’s a lot that happens in 365 days. This hasn’t been a good entry, but I blame that on my subject. There are a few things I’ll remember for a long time about 2007 – some of them superficial, and others will probably affect me for a long time to come.
I can’t fit a year into a xanga entry, so I didn’t try. Still fun to look back and examine some snippets of things though, whether I can really tell you about them or not.