30 Day Challenge
Day 17 — Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
This is a question not to ask me. I wouldn’t want to trade anyone. I really wouldn’t. I don’t think I’d do so well as anyone else…I mean, I’m sure lots of people wish they could be someone else (that’s why this question is in here, right?), but I don’t think most anyone ever considers that there are a lot of things they don’t know about other people.
I’d hate to switch with someone, even for a day, and find out all the secret problems that they have and just don’t tell anyone about. And yes, I really do believe that everyone has things like that…problems, fears, insecurities, resentments, animosities that they just don’t talk about to anyone, for whatever reason.
I wouldn’t want to find out these things, and even if I traded with one of the people I’m close with and might actually care to know these things about…well…I can only assume that there are reasons they don’t share them with me. It wouldn’t be any of my business to know. It’s always shocking to me when my sisters or K or someone does tell me one of these things that they’ve been holding in for who knows how long…I imagine the number of things I’d learn in switching places with someone would probably damage my psyche in as yet unthought of ways.
I mean…I imagine that some of you who have been with me for a long time might be able to trade with me and maybe not be as damaged…I mean, if you’ve paid attention, you know about some of the bigger things, like about Melody and about Mike, and you know about my fragmented view of myself and that I describe those fragments as various animals and that I occasionally get very agitated over small things, or depressed over what is apparently nothing at all…
But you don’t know about my family. You don’t know about the little rituals I have to appease my compulsive, germophobic inclinations. You don’t know so many details about my faith. Even if you were clever enough to figure out why I died, you don’t probably know why I became a monster. You don’t know why I said I’d kill someone. You don’t know what it is that I’ve apparently done to attract the attention of the dead voice I could hear in my head, and you don’t know (to be truthful, I don’t either) why its’ face has so rapidly evolved into that of my nemesis, the dreaded leopard seal.
And that’s only parts of it. There is a lot you don’t know about me, and if there are that many reasons why you wouldn’t want to trade places with me, I know there must be some reasons, at least, why I wouldn’t want to trade with you or anyone else.
Day 1 — 15 interesting facts about yourself Day 2 — The meaning behind your user name Day 3 — Pictures of the 5 strangest things in your room. Day 4 — A habit that you wish you didn’t have Day 5 — A picture of somewhere you’ve been to Day 6 — Favorite super hero and why Day 7 — Make a picture of someone you love. Day 8 — Short term goals for this month and why Day 9 — Something you’re proud of from the past few days Day 10 — A picture of yourself. Day 11 — Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad Day 12 — How you found out about xanga and why you made one Day 13 — A letter to someone who has hurt you recently Day 14 — A picture of your favourite band. Day 15 — Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play Day 16 — A picture of your favourite animal. Day 17 — Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why