Yesterday I was thinking again about leaving, and why I do not try harder.
I almost told myself that getting attached was the worst, but then I realised that was wrong. The worst is when I try and talk myself out of it and tell myself that all the reasons I feel that way are a lie.

The one thing I tried hardest to talk myself away from almost made me leave for good.
I don’t want to try that ever again.

I mean…what if I believed myself?