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Music Journal #74—CD5
Crash :: 12 Stones :: 12 Stones
Freshman Year of College
I really started to feel like what I was trying to do wasn’t working… it didn’t matter how much I wanted to be a good Christian: I just couldn’t do it, apparently, and God wasn’t going to help me. I really felt that way…
I wonder if other Christians ever think about this kind of thing. Do they ever wonder why, in spite of the faith that they cling to, they cannot make themselves choose the right thing? It’s very awful, especially in light of this passage in Hebrews that talks about how you won’t be forgiven if you know the truth and you know what’s right, but still continue to sin.
That passage always has disturbed me, and Mother Star and I have talked about it off and on, so maybe I’m a little less disturbed by it now… but not as much as I wish I were… n’t.
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Lyrics for “Crash”:
As I lie here, tossing in my bed,
lost in my fears, remembering what you said.
And I try to hide the truth within.
The mask of myself shows its face again.
Still I lie time and time again.
Will you deny me when we meet again?
And I feel like I’m falling
farther every day,
but I know that you’re there,
watching over me.
And I feel like I’m drowning,
the waves crashing over me,
but I know that your love,
it will set me free.
As I find truth where I found it times before,
as I search for your hope,
I’m finding so much more.
And I try to be more like you,
and I deny myself to prove my heart is true.
I hear your voice calling.
The time has come for me.
Inside this life I’m living,
there’s nothing left for me.
My mind is slowly fading
so far away from me.
Each time I start crawling,
you’re there watching me.