So, talking about myself via going through my day.
What do you do first but wake up? And these days that’s somewhere between 420 and 500 in the morning.
Part of me hates it, obvs. Mostly because if I am left to sleep and wake when my internal clock says it’s time, I’d still be getting up in the early afternoon and going to sleep in the wee hours of the morning like I did for many years when I was working at the movie theatre.
But I’m not doing that anymore. It’s wild to think about sometimes though, how I spent hours and hours there every week and now since 2020 I have only been to the movie theatre twice, and both of those times within this past year.
I’m glad though. Not getting screamed at by guests anymore about stupid stuff…I make more money…no weekend work…etc.
I’m also SO GLAD that I left there before the pandemic because from the people I knew who were still there, it was a shitshow when they reopened. They demoted a ton of management and wanted them to come back as regular crew…I guarantee I would have been in that group of people if I’d still been there. One of the theatres in the chain closed because the owners of the building were concerned about the company and didn’t want to renew the lease in case it went bankrupt, too, so the staff from that building had to get shuffled around to the other locations, and that left even fewer positions open…it was a lot.
So yeah, now I wake up at the crack of still dark for work. In a hospital. I forget if I ever mentioned when I left the movie theatre, what my new job was. It’s in supply chain, so LOL, I’m sure you can already see where some of my posts will go. Supply chain is also a shitshow, of course, and that’s even 4 years out from when this started.
For a while, I was even going in at 5am. So waling up at 3 to get there and do two hours of overtime almost daily for the better part of 2020. I really abused my ability to not sleep that year…so much so that it’s gotten worse and it’s hard for me to stay asleep these days.
Not that I’m suggesting I have some supernatural ability to stay awake…no, it’s more like…I was always bad at the transition between sleep and wakefulness, taking a long time to fall asleep and then really struggling to wake up. But now it seems like my body wants me to wake up multiple times a night because it’s not sure if I should be asleep or for how long anymore. It sucks.
I’ve been taking melatonin for a few years now, in various doses. I took benedryl every night for about a year now too. I’m trying to get out of that habit, but the two together really helped with the transition into being asleep.
I’m still not great at the waking up though. I don’t know if I ever will be. Hence the extra early mornings.
If I was the kind of person who could roll out of bed, get dressed and leave, I could probably get up right before 6 and make it to work with time to spare…buuuuuut I am not that person. I need time to heat up, or something before I can get moving. Like a lizard.
So I have my absurdly early alarm, and it gives me extra time to hit snooze once or thrice, and then to spend the better part of an hour scrolling through the internet to wake up. And let me tell you, during the worst parts of the 2020-2022 timeframe, I felt like I needed that extra time just to even try and wrap my head around the nonsense that was going on. Waiting until lunch time go get into the day’s news cycle was too long. Gotta get that doomscrolling in early!
But yeah. It’s a habit that’s kind of helped me at least get out of bed in time to get showered and dressed with enough time to move at my turtle pace.
For my next post, we’ll talk about even more exciting things like how to get out from under the covers! (Literally impossible!)
Cheers, comrades.
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